bitch-loves

2010-07-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

what a boring day today. =.=
looked thru my blog posts, and realised how stupid i am to fall in love with you!! uhhh!!
the more i read and the more i think. YOU ARE A BASTARD WHO HURT MY FEELINGS DAMN LOT! YOU ARE ALSO A SLUT WHO BACKSTABBED ME SAYING NEVER TO MAKE ME UPSET ANYMORE! why would i have this kind of fren last time! uh! ):
i tot we could be like real close frenz forever. but it turned out to be real enemies forver. LOL!
i seriously don understand why you have to do this.
can't you just tell me the truth instead of lying?

AH FUCK! don't care about all of this already! PISSED OFF! I PROMISED MYSELF NEVER TO TALK TO BOTH OF YOU NO MATTER WHAT! I DON'T CARE WHETHER YOU ARE TALKING TO ME OR NOT. BUT I JUST DON'T TO HEAR YOU IN MY HEAD!! ):

ytd went out with kat to watch a show : Thief of Time.
SUPER NICE AND TOUCHING SHOW. its about a family show. father had cancer, everybody regretted what they did previously and made a change. they acted real good!! even me and kat cried!! LOL! after show ended at 4.30, the producer mentioned if you wanna take picture with the cast, you may do so outside! then kat and me was like... eh timberland la!! take pic with him!! QUICK QUICK! we were super crazy about taking pic with him lor! SUPER CUTE! (photo is on fb) not a chinese, not a malay, obviously not a indian. dunno whats his race. hahah! around 4plus coming to 5, kat took the initiative to take picture with him! then we were like, laughing in our hearts! hehehehehe!! he held on to our shoulder!!!
kat and me was like, eh dun touch here ah. he touched me here ok>!?!?!?! HEHEHEHEH!! after taking picture, we said thanks and left with a crazy smile!! WOOHOOO!!! looked thru the pic and we laughed super loud!!! HEHEHEHE!! he's super duper uper cute lor!!
then went causeway point walk walk. ate ice-cream. walked walked, went to arcade walk walk , saw jens, took bus to my house for dinner! watched thai ghost movie on my laptop, sent kat to bus stop and home to sleep!!! (:

Brother went out with gf today to watch The Crazies! hope they enjoyed! (:

2010-07-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

boo!!! here to update my blog.
realised that i didn't update my blog for a super long time.
*Blow. Dusty! hahaha.
i wanna update is because, i wanna talk about my love life.
i feel so happy having guys to be close frenz with me! i'm really grateful to have you as my best fren and brother! =D
but in fact, i kinda like you.
not really kinda like but kinda like truly love??
he's a really nice guy. handsome guy, caring guy, loving brother, hmmm.. what else??
funny guy, cute guy! hehehe.

there's no reason why you would love someone. its just love.
but too bad i can't love him to the extend to be with him cos he got a gf.
guess he's having problem with his gf thats why he didn't wanna talk much about him. (:
he and me is really getting close as frenz. (: HAPPY!!!

saw yuen fen today!! couldn't resist myself from looking at him and fall in love again! omg!
i feel like i'ma slut! ): liking so many ppl at a time.
SHINee, Neat guy, Yuen Fen, Timberlands all around ITE. heheheh!
best thing ever! =D
but i guess i won't be so fortunate to have all this guys to fall in love with me! ):
i really wannt to fall in love. really in love with a guy, but where is that guy? ):
I LOVE YOU GUYS!! =) MUACKX*

2010-05-15T23:55:00.000-07:00

Lets make this last forever, forever, and ever!!
will it happen?
i want this to happen...
):
playing band hero at danish's house now.. haha
justin's singing.. LOL! FIRST DATE - BLINK 182

I MISS YOU!

2010-05-14T20:22:00.000-07:00

it was ur birthday ytd.. i was brave enough to give you my love. but u didn't accept it.
its alright.
as long as you're happy, den i'm happy..
the moment i received your msg, i read it, i broke down and cried.
that was the time i knew that we'll nvr be together and unless u change your mindset...
i told myself not to cry but ended up crying. even cried in public.
ppl kept looking at me.
i know that i can't force you to love me and also its your choice of who you want to love.
but i'm really glad that you're fine with it.
i tried to stop crying but i couldn't.
last night, when i was on my way home, i looked thru the sms again. and i cried.

I'm sorry nicoleen, i promised you not to cry but i cried.
I really couldn't take it . and now i'm crying again..
i guess its really very hard for me to take it easy. as you know what kind of person am i.

Girls! i'm really sorry to break my promise of not crying anymore.
i was even crying when i was in the changing room.. ):

hey, hope that we can still be as normal frenz like we always were.

but i hope that u know that i'll not give up my love on you.

Stay Happy k? (:

2010-05-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

tmr is gonna be ur 17th birthday le.. (:
17 yrs old le leh! =D
i'm still not giving up on you..
i have done something for you which i have done for anyone before.
i guess u're really special to me!
i've really enjoyed my day today.
especially with you.
it doesn't matter whether you are gonna like me or not.
but i'm just gonna express my feelings to u.
its alright if you don't accept me.
it doesn't have to be that i love you and i must be with you.
so long as you're happy, i'm happy too! =D
but nvr express to me that you're sad or whatever. thats gonna make me sad too! =(

I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR!! I HOPE GOOD THINGS WILL HAPPEN!
I DUN WISH TO BREAK DOWN AND CRY! ):
IF YOU DO NOT WISH TO ACCEPT MY LOVE TO YOU, ITS ALRIGHT.
I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST FOR JIO-ING XINYI! =D
ALL THE BEST! =D

2010-05-11T04:45:00.000-07:00

i dun wish to get hurt, at the same time, i dun wish to hear lies too..
what if i hear things which i dun wish to hear and get hurt?
what if i hear lies from you?
both ways i'll get hurt too..
i dunno what i really wish to hear from you.
but i guess its better to say the truth rather than lies.
hmmm.. super stressed up and anxious to hear from you.
but i scared i will break down and cry!
i hope it won't happen!!! ):

I MISS YOU! =D

working tmr.. till 11..
exams coming up .
then chalet .
den work.
den school reopens! SIAN~~~

2010-05-07T22:34:00.000-07:00

hello!
was working on wednesday and thursday. so wasn't able to post..
thursday, there was a talk on stress management.
den the trainer showed us a video about family bonding or something liddat.
was watching den i cried! shit la!
super paiseh lor, having you seeing me cry... ):
Ugh!!! but that video is super touching! evil animal!
why do you have to hunt on such a cute little bear....

yipee!! waiting for the day to come!
super excited and was afraid i will say wrong things.
OMG!!
how i wish u can accept me!!! =D

hmmm..still communicating well with you..
i was super angry last night..
glad that there's ppl still caring for me and listening to me talking crap!! =D
thanks yichun, yih jen and nicoleen! =D
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! =D